Whoowh ! What a story ! I know a bit what involves to be raised in religious principles (but fortunately I escape the religious community, I just kept the humble and love principles of that religion I've been raised in), my mom was a kinda catholic sympathizer, wishing me and my bro to pray at night and all that stuff.
As many already told ya, it needed you to be courageous for having come here to show yourself. (I will just repeat myself, but this is something you should already value, in your self-esteem)
I remember the first time we fell over a transgender porn movie with my brother. On the one hand we were really anxious to be caught by our mother at the moment, but on the other hand I'll never forget the feeling I had when my bro was just criticizing the girl on the movie, almost laughing out loud ridiculously... I was really disappointed and fearing that he could discover why I wasn't laughing at the moment like he did. Let's say it was really "visible". But I don't know why, except that I was afraid on the moment, it was just too pleasant for me to just try to escape from myself pretending that the girl doesn't had any effect on me. Plus, I'm not good at lying.
Now that I think about it, I guess it was my luck that me and he were living like rivals at the moment. There were things that we didn't had to share so... maybe it helped a lot to just don't care about sharing it and enjoy.
I am a bit curious now... Have you, guys, also your favorite ones ? Like Kimber James ? Ladyboy Rose ? Or Nina Lawless ? (I don't really know what gender people could tell they are however) I still got some folders with their names... Sounds a bit ridiculous now than I mention it...