Hello everyone Im Chris and im Trans attracted. A little about me Im 23 and in my 3rd year of University im also a reservist with the Canadian Army. I was born in the Southern African Nation of Zimbabwe however I left at the age of 7 and moved to America, growing up in a little town called Longview,TX. In 2008 I moved to Canada and have become a Canadian citizen…although i consider America my home .
I first discovered about transwomen through watching a series on National geographic called Taboo when i was only 12 It was my first experience knowing about the complexities of Sexuality and gender and in the particular episode of Taboo it featured trans women from the pacific rim known as the fafafine in this episode i also learned about the concept of third gender across the world. I also would stay up late to watch Jerry Springer which looking back i found was pretty exploitive to transgendered people. Even as a kid from a very conservative culture i took it upon myself to read up on gender and sexuality. By the time i entered high school i began to question pretty much everything i was taught by my parents and community(I was bought up in a religious household and was taught to be a good christian). It all came to head when out of curiosity i watched Shemale-porn at 13 and i found myself really aroused but then i had this sense of guilt and shame and went through a depression trying to come to terms with what i just looked at and my arousal to it. My biggest fear was that i might be gay and in the Zimbabwean community as in many Africa cultures homosexuality is pretty much a death sentence even being accused of being gay or not fitting in the hyper-masculine culture can create real problems.
So in High school i had a double life in public around my peers and around members of my community i would be the religious guy everyone in the community looked up too however at night i went on the porn sites to look at trans-women. After High school i broke up with my religious off and on girlfriend and began a journey of discovery and im still on that journey im learning to deal with the fear of loving a trans-women and i have even told my sister about my attraction and she has supported me 100% as for everyone else close friends,relatives,ect they know nothing of my preference and to be honest most of them i dont care to tell them because ive always been private with my relationships and knowing my culture most wouldnt understand so i live my regardless with no regrets…However i have made it clear to myself i wont tolerate trans phobic comments and have schooled my friends on saying such comments. Im so glad i found this website because now i know im not the only guy who loves women for who they are and is fighting back against the absurd standards society has placed which makes people unable to be who they are and to love who they want to love. Hope to hear from you guys and to make friends!